I like to act like I have it all together. Like everything is going exactly as I planned. Exactly as I dreamed. Truth is it doesn't always. Tonight is one of those nights. The nights which hit me like a sack of bricks. I find myself crying for no reason. But is infertility really no reason?
Some think I'm crazy for loving the snow. I think people are crazy for not taking the time to enjoy what snow brings. No matter how quick you try to keep going time just slows down.
I just pray my dreams of starting a family don't end up like this.
Tonight's post is full of prayers. Prayers that I don't have to stay on this journey much longer. My heart aches more and more. As my mom says, "I was on a hill, and tonight I am having a valley moment."
Please family & friend's pull me out.